calm. chill. relax.

spring break.
every college student looks forward to spring break.
spring break is looked at from many students as a time to go somewhere warm, get completely trashed with friends (old and new), and just party before you have to hit the books for 6 more weeks.
this is my final spring break. I think that I have used it well. I am excited that I did absolutely nothing except rest, relax, and recharge.
many of my friends have gone to some awesome places for spring break this year like North Carolina, California, Florida, many have gone to Missouri for the guys National Basketball Championship. I have gone somewhere for the past three spring breaks. This time I came home. I came home last saturday. I have seen some friends from high school, spent some time with friends from church, and of course I have seen my family. But most of all I have gotten to spend time with myself, reflecting on my life and things that are happening in my life. I don't do this often, and I am not very good at it. But sometimes it just needs to happen. I have spent the last day listening to mostly the New Moon and Twilight soundtracks and scores. Mostly the scores though, meaning just piano or orchestra music. I love it so much. Yiruma and Carter Burwell and Alexandre Desplat did a fabulous job creating the mood for the books and movies of the Twilight Saga. This music is able to reach in and touch a deep place in my soul. I love it.
Today I have been mostly just listening to the music and staring out my window. This probably sounds really lame... but I almost feel like my life is a movie when I do this. I have a little cut out piece of my wall where my window is. I think originally when we moved in, we meant to put a bench here, but we never did so currently my bed is in this litte nook the head of my bed is in this nook with the rest of my bed sticking out into the middle of my room. It is kind of inconvenient, but i like the view. I have looked out this window many times, but I don't know if i ever really saw it in the light I see it today. The view is nothing but a field with a swamp in the middle of it, but I have lived with this field here for almost 17 years of my life. It is home. It is comforting. When I want to cry, it is a comforting sight.
Althought it is not sunny out today, there is something promising about the day when I look out the window. It brings me hope. Although this field and the swamp are only different shades of brown and gray with a little snow it is beautiful. breathtaking. inspiring. I am glad I am here to just relax. Get away from school, studying, even some of the people there. I love music. I love relaxing. I will save the worrying for when I get back on Sunday night. I am going to enjoy my last spring break to its fullest while I still can.